Sometimes things are just so frustrating. I don't understand why things always seem to get harder just when you think that things are going okay. I have been in school now for almost three months and I am really excited about it. I have (so far) maintained a 4.0, I have made some really great friends, and just feel more accomplished and happier overall. So of course something must happen in order to knock me down a peg or two!
I don't know maybe I am a little manic deppressive (at least that is the way I tend tobe dealing with all of this). So The "baby-daddy" hasn't been answering my phone calls for 3 weeks. Ever since I found out that he was being laid off from his job. I don't think that I am a cruel heartless person but because he is ignoring me I have felt as if i am being patronized and treated with no respect. now I am sorry but at this point in between the two of us I think I deserve a lot of respect. Sure I haven't done this all on my own I have had help, and I try to keep him as involved as possible being so far away. i don't even freak out over all of the small things. I feel like I am a pretty compassionate understanding person in all of this. yet he stops answering my phone calls just when things start getting rough. As it stands I have one or two weeks of daycare payments left in my bank account. I can't get a job until January because I go to school too many days a week and have a lot of homework.
So I finally talked to him and found out that he was simply embarrassed to answer the phone. I guess I understand that to an extent but what the hell. It isn't like I am going to barrade him b/c he got laid off I know it wasn't his fault. Geez.... when will it all jsut go to normal.