Every springtime is a time of change. Everyone has always seen it as "spring fever"; however, this time I am not looking for anything like that, although love is certainly a motivator. This is my time for reinventing myself. I take the NET tomorrow and although I should know everything on this exam I am extremely nervous.
I have taken the first steps towards a better future, and all I can worry about is the present situation. I need to do this because without a degree I will never be able to provide for my family. Max is almost 1 1/2 and I want to be a role model for him, therefore I need to be able to create some opportunities for him. I haven't chosen a career that I wish to do for the rest of my life, but it is a start towards something great
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Friday, May 4, 2007
Unbreak my heart
Can one ever truly mend a broken heart? It is always said that time heals all wounds. I don't believe that time can truly heal any wound. Time is a factor that never changes, how can something with such unphysical properties change the mental or physical damages. Time certainly affects a wound; but change it?
If you break your arm over time it heals but the mending is done physically by your own bones. In such a manner that we actually heal ourselves. Years later a doctor can look at that same arm and know that it was once broken. Things heal and are usable again but they are never the same as it once was. The same thing happens when your heart is broken. It is never the same. After a heartbreak, or tragic experience your life is altered in such a way that it affects things even 20 years from now.
So how does one mend a broken heart? Time certainly doesn't do it; our hearts mend themselves. We learn to deal with our pain and hopefully learn how to prevent the same occurrence. It always leaves a scar something that doesn't go away it is up to us to decide whet er we let our scars rule the rest of our paths. We are going to be hurt it is inevitable, we either learn from them or run from them.
If you break your arm over time it heals but the mending is done physically by your own bones. In such a manner that we actually heal ourselves. Years later a doctor can look at that same arm and know that it was once broken. Things heal and are usable again but they are never the same as it once was. The same thing happens when your heart is broken. It is never the same. After a heartbreak, or tragic experience your life is altered in such a way that it affects things even 20 years from now.
So how does one mend a broken heart? Time certainly doesn't do it; our hearts mend themselves. We learn to deal with our pain and hopefully learn how to prevent the same occurrence. It always leaves a scar something that doesn't go away it is up to us to decide whet er we let our scars rule the rest of our paths. We are going to be hurt it is inevitable, we either learn from them or run from them.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
The Haunted
Have you ever had something from you past come back to haunt you? Every once in awhile I think about certian things that were, for lack of better words, poor choices on my part. However, there is a particular instance that has been on my mind for several weeks.
I have been talking to an old friend here recently, and it just so happens that this event is closely tied to him. So now whenever I talk to him, which is rather frequently, my mind goes crazy for days remembering it, seeing the images whenever I close my eyes like it was yesterday. I do believe it has been somewhere around 2-3 years now...
I am at a loss for what to do. I don't want to bring it up to him and rehash this incident, but will it haunt me until I do?? Then what happens when we are on vaction, in which we are going to his state and county, will it still be tormenting me?
I have been talking to an old friend here recently, and it just so happens that this event is closely tied to him. So now whenever I talk to him, which is rather frequently, my mind goes crazy for days remembering it, seeing the images whenever I close my eyes like it was yesterday. I do believe it has been somewhere around 2-3 years now...
I am at a loss for what to do. I don't want to bring it up to him and rehash this incident, but will it haunt me until I do?? Then what happens when we are on vaction, in which we are going to his state and county, will it still be tormenting me?
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